Doesn’t see real, I guess it’s not real. I wonder if she is about and can hear me or see me, I’m all in for the life after death info. But apparently it takes a few weeks to actually get through and a lot of energy from that side. I know I read a lot in these things !
I feel at a loss, I don’t find it easy to talk to people about just well anything and I’m quite private in ways and I could really just talk to her you know and we did talk around her little dining table in her yellow kitchen, I now have a yellow kitchen too.
But she never got to visit the house.
Don’t get me wrong we did have disagreements and we are all only human and didn’t see eye to eye but she was my auntie.
It’s a bit strange now thou as she is married and yet I don’t hear from my uncle. It’s as though she passed and I disappeared out of his life as if we had never met. And I do feel slightly angry at this as she was such an important part of my life yet he hasn’t spoken to me once since.
I didn’t want to lose the strong women connection and I yearned for another person to take the part and I still get emotional now when I think about it. An all rounder and I felt bad for throwing myself forward to her friends at the funeral like I was throwing myself to the lions ‘ here take me’ I’m a little sore around the edges and I’m a good person and I just need another strong women to pick me up cos I got no one here. I feel alone in the world without my strong women. And that’s the truth of it. I do feel alone and it’s lovely to have her friends but I don’t want to feel like I’m lurching and if your reading this I just want you to love me like Liz did.
La mort n'est rien, je suis seulement passé dans la pièce à côté
