Close Friends

I have some very good friends. I have some amazing friends, and I'm sure we all have one or 2 that never fail us, whatever our lives or whatever we fear. Who are there at the drop of a hat, selfless beings from another planet come to connect. Soul mates/star seekers whatever you want to believe. Where connections are deep and unexplained. Can we be in a relationship with a friend and it be a friendship? But more, now I'm not talking friends with benefits! Something more on a deeper connection then just a friend? I've never been any good at letting go and I always want to stay friends with everyone, but we all know we can't and that life goes on and we loose people on our path and gain new ones. But can you really let go, how much of a friend really stays with you and how much can you let go of them. We all grow, but what draws us back to people, what is is that holds us or holds them to your soul? Need? Love? Fear? or just something you just can't understand or will never understand. That my friend is a mystery. I was thinking I have so many amazing friends that I'd want them all to be godparents or take out the god bit and be friend parents! I could'nt just have one, would mean another one would be jelous! I have friends that creep into my life thinking they can be close or be my best buddy! Like as if being close is a way in! tell me I'm amazing when I don't need to be told that in order to be their friend! I am AMAZING anyway! (talk to the hand) I am wary of these friends energies and I stay back. You kind of know anyway in meeting someone I think if they are gonna be a drain or a good doer. I have some friends who I don't see so much, now I'm being honest! They drain me, They always go on about the most depressing things in life and are always complaining that so many things have happened to them and still could happen. Its so draining. I like to give my time to as many people and I'm always ears, but sometimes its just too much. I can't count my close friends on my hands, but I can count them in my heart..